Mariah Carey Didn't Want to be Famous Thu, 3-Sep-2009
Mariah Carey doesn’t always love having her life in the limelight and says it is certainly “not easy.”
The songstress says that she never wanted to become a celebrity and only wants to focus on making music, movies, and living her life.
“I went through a period of time when I was working my butt off, and that will get to you,” she said. “Now I know how to say no to things. I didn’t know that before.
And though she is better at how to say things, it doesn’t make it much easier. “Being in the limelight is not easy and being around a lot of people all the time is also difficult.
But she does feel like others understand. “People who do what I do will know what I mean. When you’re in front of the camera, people are going to make their own opinions up about you and can say what they want to say about you. All I want to do is make music, make movies, live my life and enjoy things.”
Carey also says that she “regrets” apologizing for her rocky performance at the Michael Jackson memorial service on Twitter.
“I regret sending that message but I was very emotional and I wasn’t happy with my performance,” she said. “But we all did our best to give Michael the send off he deserves. I just forgot the world could read that.”
“I thought I was just talking to my friends.I shouldn’t have done that because that was really only meant for Michael. to appearance the leaves read That was about him. It was difficult just to get through the song because I feel as if I have been listening to Michael Jackson’s music my whole life.”
And, like many, Carey looked up to Jackson. “When I was a little kid I used to sing all his songs. The whole world suffered a huge loss. The whole world is going to feel this forever.I consider myself blessed to have known him, to have performed with him several times and to have sung at his memorial.” | 
